You are not the messiah. This delusion was specifically predicted by Jesus Himself as a sign of the end times, and that "many" would be thus deceived. He even told us WHY they would be deceived, and you seem to fit rather nicely to prove His point. But more on that in a moment.As well, "signs and wonders" are not always of God, nor are we encouraged to give the benefit of the doubt to God at the End of the Age. We in fact, must test them and scrutinize them by direct command of scripture. This is not "blaspheming the Spirit", for it is the Holy Spirit Himself that commanded us to do just this. Do not be ignorant, confused, deceived, or muddle-headed concerning this.
1Jo 4:1 (NIV) Do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world.Specifically, signs and wonders (miracles) are a hallmark of the "Beast" and "False Prophet" to come in mystery Babylon. The witch-priests that opposed Moses had real supernatural power, as you might remember, which was not from God. This is small-potatoes compared to what is prophesied to come, of which you might be caught up in. If it is not too late, repent while you still have the chance.1Th 5:21 (NIV) Test everything. Hold on to the good.
Please note how signs and wonders (miracles) are depicted in the following prophetic warnings about the "evil-one" who is popularly called the "anti-christ" or "anti-messiah".
2Th 2:9-12 (NIV) The coming of the lawless one will be in accordance with the work of Satan displayed in all kinds of counterfeit miracles, signs and wonders, and in every sort of evil that deceives those who are perishing. They perish because they refused to love the truth and so be saved. For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness.And now the real Messiah/Christ, Jesus, weighs in...Rev 13:11-14 (NIV) Then I saw another beast, coming out of the earth. He had two horns like a lamb, but he spoke like a dragon. He exercised all the authority of the first beast on his behalf, and made the earth and its inhabitants worship the first beast, whose fatal wound had been healed. And he performed great and miraculous signs, even causing fire to come down from heaven to earth in full view of men. Because of the signs he was given power to do on behalf of the first beast, he deceived the inhabitants of the earth...
Mat 24:23-25 (NIV) "At that time if anyone says to you, 'Look, here is the Messiah/Christ!' or, 'There he is!' do not believe it. For false Christs/Messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and miracles to deceive even the elect--if that were possible. See, I have told you ahead of time."For more on this, see the posting on "Signs and Wonders at the End of the Age.Satan is not like God; he does not have the creative power of God, nor the ability to know things in advance, etc. God tells us what Satan will do, in fact. But from Satan's position, he has to "shop" for his "anti-messiah"; he can't just do it like God does. He has been shopping for a long time and with many people. I suspect Satan may have thought Hitler to be the one... if you follow my point here. If this is true than Satan is even now "shopping" for people who might be the one with such a penchant for deception that he can inhabit in mimicry of bodily incarnation. And the thousands, like you, who may turn out to be duds (when it comes to pure evil--a good thing!) will end up being very resonant with the prophesied anti-messiah in any case. Jesus said, "Many will come"... right? I think that this means that Satan will attempt to deceive many people just like he is trying to delude you. You are just a spiritual rape victim of Satan. Will you stay around for more, or take this chance to get out of his dungeon?
Given this, what you assert does not sound that strange to me; but don't fall for it. There is one Messiah, or "anointed one", and that is Jesus. He shares His anointing and life with us, to be sure, but it is His not ours (Gal 2:20). His "anointing" has a definite smell and fragrance and character (Isa 11:2-5, Lk 4:18-19) which you are miles from--nearly the opposite or "anti" as the scripture would say... but you are being groomed for destruction. Will you be like Peter, who screwed up radically but repented, or will you be like Judas? Both blew it big-time, but one was saved and one "destined for destruction". So there is still hope for you if you will earnestly repent and turn from illicit supernatural manifestations. It will mean starting from scratch and receiving a severe rebuke, but you will be ultimately culpable for what you decide.
For a start, I would suggest that you read the Bible Study on Witchcraft, especially concerning the ability to be able to do "miracles" without submission to God. This was exactly the strategy Satan used to try to tempt Jesus in the wilderness. "There is nothing new under the sun." (Ec 1:9) Jesus could not just "do miracles" nor were they of the paltry variety of ESP and other such beginner occult arts. He lived in open submission.
Jn 5:19 (NIV) "I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does."Signs and wonders will "follow" those who believe, but "a wicked and adulterous generation seeks a sign" (Mat 16:4) said Jesus. Think about it, and test your own heart.Acts 8:9-13 (NIV) Now there was a man named Simon, who formerly was practicing magic in the city and astonishing the people of Samaria, claiming to be someone great; and they all, from smallest to greatest, were giving attention to him, saying, "This man is what is called the Great Power of God." And they were giving him attention because he had for a long time astonished them with his magic arts. But when they believed Philip preaching the good news about the kingdom of God and the name of Jesus Christ, they were being baptized, men and women alike. Even Simon himself believed; and after being baptized, he continued on with Philip, and as he observed signs and great miracles taking place, he was constantly amazed.There is more to the story of Simon, of course, because he was a very "tweaked" individual with wrong motives [which you can read about yourself by continuing in your Bible from the above text, if you like], but he at least switched sides from being a deceiver with "miracles" to being a believer with miracles. But it was not easy. Will you make the switch? It might mean you will have to endure some strong rebukes since you are a "tweaked" individual as well; but if you love the truth you must start somewhere. Jesus Christ is the truth. Start by submitting to and receiving Him, rather than claiming to be Him... which is the truest and purest form of blasphemy.If the Witchcraft Bible Study is useful to you in your repentance, then also try the Demonic Pathology study as well.
